Hard to Start Christmas…

December 12, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

It’s 0600 as they say in the army, and I’m up in a quiet house.  Rees and I were supposed to go duck hunting this morning, but I forgot to reset the alarm.  To tell the truth, I’m not much in the mood anyway.  It was a fitful night’s sleep.

I’m about to have to fire someone at work, and it’s weighing heavy on my mind…  Especially at this time of year.

I guess it goes with the territory when you’re the boss, but that doesn’t make it any easier.  I’ve tried everything I know to empower and motivate this person, but he just won’t respond.

So here I sit, alone, watching The Little Drummer Boy in claymation and feeling blue.

I think I’ll pray.

Peace,

The Ghost of Posts Past…

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

For quite a while, I have had most of my posts published only in “private.”

I did this mostly out of fear…  Fear of what readers might think of some of the more intimate posts about my mental health, but more so, fear that someone with a differing set of religious convictions might try and use them against me. 

The latter is not just paranoia, it’s happened before.

But in the final analysis, I’ve decided that I’m being dishonest to myself by hiding.

So it’s all out there again, lame posts, rants… Warts and all.

And boy do I feel better!

Peace,

My First Post…

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

Hi,

My name is brother terry and this is my blog. While blogging is not new to me, this journey that I’m inviting you to accompany me on certainly is. You see a couple of weeks ago, I was reading a sermon by the great Charles Spurgeon when I felt my heart being “strangely warmed” by the text. The sermon was about Grace and God’s Sovereignty, and the words pierced me to my very soul.

Needless to say this is a radical departure for me.

As a “good” Southern Baptist preacher, I have followed what I have always been taught about Election and man’s freewill and have even preached a few sermons where I attempted to “pull the petals off the T.U.L.I.P.” But when I took a look at the doctrines from an open-minded point of view, I discovered that what I had been told and even taught myself about “5 Point Calvinism” might be a total misrepresentation of the case.

I’ve decided to dig deeper into these teachings.

This journey is not going to be easy: I have much reading, study and praying to do. Plus I know from past experience that when you explore or even ask questions about something that isn’t what the average SBC member or pastor believes you are going to find trouble.

So I invite you to join me on this journey into my reformation. I will be as honest and open as I can with my posts, and maybe we will all learn something as we explore my faith together.

Peace,

Exciting New Post!!!

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

There is an exciting new post over at The Gen-X Baptist. Check it out!

Walking Note: Too many tornadoes and flash floods to walk.

The Finer Things…

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

It’s a brand new month!!!

Sami and I drove to Memphis last night and had a wonderful dinner. We started off with an aperitif of crab cakes and a dry martini. I had a delightful New York Strip, baked potato and and couple of slices of absolutely AMAZING bread. Sami had the rib eye, which was just as good.

Did I “blow” my diet?

Absolutely not!

First of all, I’m not on a diet, I’ve simply changed the way I live and eat. Secondly, having a nice dinner is exactly the kind of thing you’re supposed to do in life. Depriving yourself of the finer things is just the kind of thing that leads to weight gain… When you feel deprived, you give up on your “diet” because it’s become a punishment instead of a lifestyle. Once you’re off the reservation, you fall right back into the same old pattern and everything is lost.

This is why dieters gain more weight than they lose.

So I’m going to enjoy myself occasionally.

Life is beautiful. Live like it!

Peace,

Walking Note: 2 miles on gravel without canine. 30 degrees, calm, clear and frosty with another glorious sunrise.

Just One Book…

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

I’m in my office trying to warm up after my walk.

I was standing in front of my wall heater a few moments ago, and decided that if I were left on a desert island and could only have one book (excluding the Bible of course) I would choose The Portable Oscar Wilde.

Just thought I’d share that with you.

Peace,

Walking Note: 1.5 miles without dog. 34 degrees and cloudy.

The State of Hate…

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

I live in Arkansas, the 49th [or sometimes 50th] poorest state in the Union.

It is said by many that in my state, we suffer under a dreadful curse that our forefathers brought down upon us by their stubborn closed-mindedness and racism. It’s often said that Arkansas runs about 20 years behind the rest of the nation in development, because our thinking and society runs 20 years behind.

I used to scoff at that, but in the past 6 months I have learned that it is very true.

Our hatred keeps us down.

I came to see this during the recent Presidential Election. People that I thought I knew as strong and faithful followers of Christ spoke openly about their hatred for Senator Obama and other African-American people.

I was shocked and hurt.

But the shock also jarred my vision into focus.

You see racism against African-Americans is just the tip of the iceberg; there are other peoples we despise even more. Hatred of “liberals” and “gays” may not run as deep, but it flows a lot swifter. As I travelled around Arkansas making contacts this summer and fall, I was bombarded by ministers and others in vocational Christian service who spoke hatefully about Democrats, homosexuals, African-Americans, and Mexicans.

The worst part is they considered this hatred to be part of their Christian walk.

Everywhere I went, people used “war” metaphor to describe the upcoming election, and the direction of American society in general. According to these people, we are engaged in a battle for the soul of America.

Their arguments were feeble at best.

The bottom line is this: How can we expect God to bless a land where hatred is planted instead of seeds of love?

We can’t, and that’s why we will continue to smolder at the bottom of the pile, 20 years behind the rest of the nation.

Peace,

A Renewal Of Spirit…

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

I’ve had a head cold all week and haven’t felt like doing hardly anything.  I was really getting run down and depressed until Ed Stetzer posted this video on his blog.  Now my spirit is totally renewed!

Thanks Ed!

A Day Like No Other…

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons

Hi.

Sami and I just got back from the Southern Baptist Convention in Indianapolis…

Editor’s Note: I have tried to write this post about a half dozen times in the past couple of hours but I can’t get it done because I am in shock.

My boss called me this evening about 7:15 p.m. and told me I was fired.

A couple of hours later I turned on my computer and found out that my best online friend is VERY ill.

We are pressured in every way but not crushed; we are perplexed but not in despair;
we are persecuted but not abandoned; we are struck down but not destroyed.
-Paul writing in 2 Corinthians 4:8-9.

Pray for China

December 10, 2009 by brotherterrysimmons